Before I Go to Sleep: A Novel

Before I Go to Sleep: A Novel

S. J. Watson

Language: English

Pages: 368

ISBN: 0062060562

Format: PDF / Kindle (mobi) / ePub

“Thebest debut novel I’ve ever read.”—Tess Gerritsen,bestselling author of the Rizzoli & Isles series

“Anexceptional thriller. It left my nerves jangling for hours after I finished thelast page.” —Dennis Lehane, New York Times bestselling author of Moonlight Mile

S. J. Watson makes his powerful debutwith this  compelling, fast-paced  psychological thriller,reminiscent of Shutter Island and Memento, in which an amnesiac who,following a mysterious accident, cannot remember her past or form newmemories, desperately tries to uncover the truth about who she is—and whoshe can trust.

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Black Horizon (Jack Swyteck, Book 11)

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Junkyard Dogs (Walt Longmire, Book 6)














said it. “I called him after we met last week,” she said. She was almost laughing, now. “He wasn’t there, but I spoke to Helen. She said she’d ask him to call me back. Adam is alive.” I stop reading. I feel light. Empty. I feel I might fall backward, or else float away. Dare I believe it? Do I want to? I steady myself against the dresser and read on, only dimly aware that no longer do I hear the sound of Ben’s shower. I must have stumbled, grabbed hold of the chair. “He’s alive?” My stomach

used, I suppose, to the softness of youth. “The year after you got your PhD. We’d been dating for a few years, then, but you—we—we both wanted to wait until your studies were out of the way.” That makes sense, I think, though it feels oddly practical of me. I wonder if I had been keen to marry him at all. As if reading my mind, he says, “We were very much in love,” and then adds, “we still are.” I can think of nothing to say. I smile. He takes a swig of his coffee before looking back at the

moan of something that I dimly recognized as pleasure. I felt something between my knees. It was hard. “I love you,” he said again, and I realized it was his knee, that he was forcing my legs apart with one of his own. I did not want to let him, but at the same time knew that somehow I ought to, that I had left it too late, watched my chances to say something, to stop this, disappear one by one. And now I had no choice. I had wanted it then, as he unzipped his trousers and stepped clumsily out

blossom–scented baths and hands around my throat. The feeling that I could not breathe. The man whose face remained a mystery. I began to cry. “Then why did you tell me at all?” I said. He spoke kindly but still did not touch me. “I didn’t,” he said. “I didn’t tell you that you were attacked. That, you remembered yourself.” He was right, of course. I felt angry. “Christine, I—” “I want you to leave,” I said. “Please.” I was crying solidly now, yet felt curiously alive. I did not know what had

calls, the aborted arrangements when something unexpected came up, and, on the days we could get together, the sordid, pathetic afternoons spent in bed with a man who had temporarily seemed better—more exciting? attractive? a better lover? richer?—than my husband. Was this the man I had been waiting for in that hotel room, the man who would eventually attack me, leave me with no past and no future? I closed my eyes. A flash of memory. Hands gripping my hair, around my throat. My head under

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